Tuesday, January 23, 2007
seeing her in that state really broke my heart. stitches, tubes, bloodshot eyes..the whole image is still jarring my mental state of mind. i was expecting her to be up and about with just a bandage or two..but no..i almost couldn't recognise her when i came into the ward. her fragile hands were holding on to this kangaroo doll while almost all parts of her body were hooked up. i wanted to touch and hug her but i was a bit apprehensive..scared that i might disrupt a tube or something. she was coughing and yawning away when i came in. i took out the bear that i brought and put it in her hands. i couldn't take it anymore and just broke down. for someone young, gorgeous and a whole future ahead of her and for something like that to happen..i just feel it's all wasted. she would have been doing her o's this year. i remember last time she would call or msg me n confide in me her problems. i wished she would have done the same thing before doing what she did. i wish i was there to stop all the bad things from happening. i really wish.
fara..please do get better soon..be stronger den ever before k..i will always be here for you if you need me.
i just wanna say thank you to my bacin for accompanying me to the hospital. if you weren't there i would have totally broke down. i l u.